The Disappearing Self

The third-dimensional self is disappearing.It can get really weird to be part-way through the Ascension process. Aspects of your personality self are falling away. New aspects are emerging, but you may not relate to them yet. And they don’t fit comfortably with the other parts that are in the process of disappearing.

Your life may be shifting dramatically, as well—relationships, your work, your health. It can all be very disorienting. You can feel fractured and unintegrated.

The only way to make sense of these experiences is to understand that part of you is living in a fourth-dimensional reality, with some lingering third-dimensional habit patterns—and part of you is now living in fifth-dimensional reality.

“Not All Here”

I’ve found there are a number of ways in which this transition from one dimension to another can be experienced. The first is to feel the sensation that you’re “not all here”. Somehow, all of you isn’t present. And no matter what you do to bring yourself fully present, it doesn’t happen. You’re only partially conscious somehow. You sense another part of you is somewhere else, but you don’t know where and you can’t get there. And you can’t bring both parts together.

The Absent Self

Ascension symptoms can include a sense of no-self.Other times it can feel as if what you’ve known to be your “self” is actually absent altogether. There’s nothing at all here. You can see your body, and be aware of thoughts in your mind and emotions in your gut—but there’s no substance somehow to any of it. It’s more than not being familiar with what’s present—it’s as if your individual self has actually somehow disappeared.

This sensation at times can be an incredible relief—it’s as if the ego self has finally disappeared and there’s nothing left but consciousness, awareness, presence.

With this experience, you feel a natural sense of bliss that carries you and yet a deep inner peace that keeps you grounded. Fear is absent, self-judgment and unworthiness have disappeared, and love floods your whole being in a very natural way. For the most part, you’re simply observing yourself, your life, and everything around you. It’s as if everything is just happening on its own—and you know it’s all perfect.

The Emerging Fifth-Dimensional Self

A fifth-dimensional self is emerging.Another way to experience the disappearance of a sense of self during the Ascension process is blissful in a slightly different way: the old ego self is gone, but there is a sensation of a new, lighter self that has replaced it.

You’re not totally familiar with it at first. Your references points have shifted and there’s very little you can say about what’s different—and yet, you know that you’re not who you used to be.

There’s a sense of deep ease and well-being that’s present, and your heart is open. You feel a natural optimism, a deep trust of what life has in store, a sense of endless possibilities. There’s no feeling of lack or limitations. You’re just present in the here and now, enjoying each new moment as it appears.

Both of these last two experiences—a complete absence of an individual self and the emergence of a new self—are extremely pleasant. Old third and fourth-dimensional reference points, emotions, and beliefs have been suspended. You’re experiencing fifth-dimensional consciousness.

The Disappearing Third/Fourth-Dimensional Self

Ascension into the Fifth Dimension is a process.But there are other times in which the feeling of an absence of a sense of self is very different. You’re not knowing yourself as pure consciousness, nor are you experiencing the sense of a new, lighter self floating along in life.

All you know is that the person you’ve known yourself to be seems to be slipping away and that your life feels somewhat empty and flat. Activities you used to enjoy no longer draw you. People you used to have a good time with now either bore or irritate you. Passions you once had have greatly diminished if not disappeared. Nothing new has appeared yet to take their place.

You’re not exactly depressed. In fact, you can even experience some lovely sensations of love and joy that waft through you at times. There’s nothing really to complain about. You just kind of feel neutral about everything—no emotional ups or downs. And your life has somehow become small and contained.

This is the experience of feeling identified with your third/fourth-dimensional self that is disappearing. You know your fifth-dimensional self is present somewhere, because you’ve had glimpses or even longer experiences of it—but you can’t access it yet at will.

Living with the Disappearing Self

Many shifts take place during Ascension.In my experience, all four of these ways of living with a disappearing sense of self can happen to us in our process of Ascension—or some mix of all of them. And they can all be somewhat disorienting, if you don’t know what the bigger picture is: that you’re in transition from one level of consciousness you’ve probably lived in for thousands of years into an unfamiliar and much higher level of consciousness.

What can get hard is when you feel stuck in the evaporating third/fourth-dimensional self. If this happens, it’s helpful to remember that it is on its way out, and the feeling of flatness and the uncomfortable changes in your life will eventually begin to disappear. At some point, your fifth-dimensional self will begin claiming you more and more often—until you have permanently established yourself in this new frequency.

The key is to not stress when you feel stuck in your disappearing self. Remember that you won’t be stuck forever; as it continues to fade into the ethers, more and more of your emerging fifth-dimensional self will begin to show up and remain for longer and longer periods of time.

If you find yourself moving into a need to compete, defend yourself, argue with others, get depressed, or struggle in any way—see if you can step back and simply observe these tendencies. They are being shown to you, so you can recognize them clearly as part of your old consciousness that is in the process of leaving.

Whenever possible, stay positive, do what you can to keep your vibration high, and hang out in gratitude. This way, you are consciously choosing to participate in your Ascension process—rather than feeling helpless as it lovingly pushes you, pulls the rug out from under you, and tosses you around, in order to keep you moving forward.

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11 Responses to The Disappearing Self

  • Molly says:

    Thank you , as always, Vidya for your spot-on description of what’s happening to some of us. It’s really helpful to have someone put this into clear language.

    I feel like I’m hovering between the “disappearing 3rd” and “Emerging 5th” but it’s often hard to put my finger on what has changed since my external world has stayed mostly static – same job, same relationships, etc. – so it can be easy to feel like nothing is happening. I feel VERY different on the inside though.

    The Emerging 5th actually becomes most apparent when I think about the future in some sort of anxious way, like “I should get a mammogram! Everyone says it’s important!” followed by a sudden drop in charge around the thought and then “Oh yeah, that doesn’t apply to me any more.” It’s like worrying about your job, and then remembering you quit that job 6 months ago.

  • Divinagracia Esmero says:

    Hello Vidya.thank you so much for this very comprehensive info on the disappearing self. I’ve been fluctuating between holding on and letting go and you have given me the courage to let go and go with the flow and simply allow life to unfold. Am truly grateful for this.

  • joan oliver says:

    The clarity and scope of your words is deeply appreciated.
    It is an artical that I definitely will share with my email list of brothers and sisters.
    Your delivery reminded me of Sgt. Joe Friday in an old TV series …
    Joe’s famous one-liner was “The facts, Ma’m, just the facts”.
    You, Videa, are gifted with that perceptive attitude …
    Thank you for sharing it with us.
    Rev. Joan Oliver

  • fernando says:

    Es hermoso encontrar tu mensaje. Me es de buena ayuda para conocerme y permitir que este camino de aprendizaje se llene de amor y dicha. Inmensamente agradecido por tu servicio. Bendiciones a tu ser. Fernando

  • Jei says:

    Good article! Much appreciated insight into the process and inspiration to press on and let it flow. Thank you.

  • Patti says:

    Great read, profoundly accurate, the information is perfect it brought clarity to things that are whisperings. A glimpse here and there. I find I want solitude, then I miss people, when I seek them out I don’t relate and it irritates. Good to see its part of the process. The gratitude of so many things that before were just over looked, now a deeper appreciation for their existence.

  • Tina says:

    Thank you for this…… I can align with it so much….the flatness, the feeling that I no longer know myself…….. I needed to read this.

  • Yazmin says:

    Thanks Vidya, for verbalizing & describing the process that I’m living right now with my family. This knowledge enlightened us 🙂 we send you our love. 😉

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