Stepping out of the Void

 Emerging from the VoidWell, it’s been over a year since I last wrote a blog on this site. I feel like I’m peeking my head out of a cave I’ve been living in for many, many months.

At some point in the last week, I realized I had somehow reached a wall inside the cave I’d been living in—and there was nowhere further to go. I needed to turn around.

Much to my surprise, when I turned around, I found I was looking out into a vast, open, sunlit space that I knew to be my life ahead of me—empty, but full of opportunity and promise.

I was startled, because for so many months, I had been experiencing my life as increasingly small and empty; and although it wasn’t exactly dark, it was rather dim, limited, and contained.

Living in the Void

 There’s no question but that I’ve been living in a type of void this last year—a place that seemed to get smaller and smaller as time went on…a place in which not much was going on at all, except for a rather rich inner life at times.

In my experience, the void seems to be like this—a place in which outer life appears to dwindle and empty out, and inner life becomes forefront. I’ve been through the void a number of times before—sometimes for a few months, sometimes up to several years. Each experience in the void has had a different flavor.

But all experiences seem to involve a type of letting go—a releasing of what feel like chunks of ego—or maybe more accurately, chunks of ego-identification: parts of myself that no longer match the frequency I’m now resonating at, activities that no longer serve me, relationships that no longer fit who I am.

And they also involve a falling-away of old ideas and beliefs I’ve had. In general, there’s an emptiness of self-ness, and a lack of clear vision of what might be ahead of me. In all ways, there’s a blankness as to who I am anymore. I no longer know who I am.

A Different Kind of Void

 But this last experience in the void I’m now emerging from seemed to be different from past experiences in certain respects.

And I believe it has to do with the times we’re living in—times in which many of us are experiencing a certain “death” of our old, third-dimensional selves, a time in which we are are truly beginning to experience Ascension.

A salient feature of my experience was a marked waning of interest in just about every activity I’d ever been interested in before. Passion was absolutely absent—I couldn’t even relate to it anymore. Almost everything out there in the world bored me.

I had a total lack of interest in meeting new people, learning new things, being creative in new ways. There were very few people at all that I wanted to spend time with. In general, I just felt “finished” with life.

I couldn’t imagine anything out there ever again really interesting me. I pretty much just wanted to stay home by myself and simply watch my inner landscape—the only place anything seemed to be happening.

Sometimes, this landscape involved the experiencing of old, heavy emotions and patterns that seemed to push their way to the surface out of nowhere. Other times, there was a pervasive dark mood that seemed to envelop me that seemed to have nothing at all to do with me. Nothing was going on to warrant it. It was just suddenly there—and then some time later, it was gone just as abruptly for no reason.

All this might sound depressing or frightening. But I can’t say that was my experience. Boring and tedious at times, yes—and sometimes perplexing. But not really hard in any way. I can actually say I was genuinely content much of the time.

There were times, however, when I did act against my natural instincts of wanting to stay at home alone and pushed myself out the door to go some place, simply because I thought I “should” be doing something besides sitting home. But this was never satisfying or enjoyable. Generally, I could never wait till I got home again.

But so long as I followed my natural inclinations and I avoided judging myself for my empty life and not doing anything that felt important, I generally felt peaceful and accepting of what was happening.

Much Happens in the Void

I feel that these journeys we make through the void have great purpose. It’s a time to dig deep inside ourselves to see what’s there—both to see what might need to be cleaned out, and to see what is authentically there beyond all the “stuff”.

It’s a time to integrate and allow new patterns that are healthier to be put into place. Without the usual outer distractions, all this can happen more rapidly and effectively.

Now that I look back at this last journey through the void, I’m seeing that much occurred during those days when it seemed like next to nothing was happening. Very subtle, but quite profound, changes occurred.

 For one thing, I now feel much lighter. There’s “less” of me walking around. Somewhere along the way, emotional and mental baggage has fallen away. There’s less mind happening.

When I look out into the world or when I interact with people, there is a much thinner veil of mind standing between the world and me—less interpreting of the world, less self-referencing. Fewer thoughts about past or future.

I find I don’t have to work at this—it’s just happening. I’m simply more centered in the present moment in an ongoing way, directly engaged, without the usual clutter of thoughts about what’s happening.

Often I experience enormous joy that bubbles up inside of me for no reason at all. And profound love that sometimes just washes through me, infusing every cell of my being. My perspective in life seems to be much more expansive and optimistic.  

I have experienced this kind of state a number of times in the past—exquisitely powerful and poignant states of expansion. (They’ve even happened to me when inside the void, for that matter.)

magicBut this time, there’s a feeling of being grounded deeply in my body while experiencing the expansion.

There’s also a sense of being newly born, fresh, with little outer covering or protection—and little need of it. I experience a sense of childlike curiosity about the world, and a profound wonder at its beauty.

It’s clear this transformation didn’t come out of nowhere. I now see that there were many months I spent in the void, both consciously and unconsciously, in a process of letting go of identity. Much inside me was being taken apart and put back together again in a new configuration. Much like being in a cocoon.

Many of Us are Experiencing The Void

I know a number of people at this time who seem to be experiencing the same kind of experience in the void I’ve been experiencing. Interest in their life has waned, friendships have dwindled down to just the most core of relationships, and there’s a desire to simply spend a lot of time home alone. Old patterns of stuckness or pain occasionally arise, seemingly to be experienced and then released.

I’m guessing that those of us experiencing this have been going through a similar process that is preparing us for the times ahead.

When I feel into these times coming up in 2014, it seems that although some absolutely wonderful shifts are going to eventually transpire in the world, there may also be some profound changes in store for us that may rock us to the core.

 I sense we are now definitely entering into the “transition times” the indigenous elders have been telling us about, as the earth makes her journey through the shift into the Fifth Dimension.

Many of the old structures that have held the world together are already falling apart and collapsing, making room for the new. It’s very exciting. But there may be a lot of chaos and confusion for a while, once the changes really start happening.

All I can say is I feel very grateful for this last sojourn through the void, because I now feel better prepared to handle whatever may be coming down the pike.  

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About Vidya Frazier

Vidya Frazier is the author of four books on the subject of Ascension: Awakening to the Fifth Dimension, Ascension: Embracing the Transformation, Triumph of the Light, and The Ascension Lightworker's Handbook . As an author, energy healer, and transpersonal psychotherapist, Vidya has offered workshops, classes and public presentations over the past forty-five years on a variety of subjects pertaining to spiritual awakening, drawing on sources from both the East and the West as well as her own inner journey. She has presented at numerous IONS events, the New Living Expo, and a 5D New Paradigm conference.
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13 Responses to Stepping out of the Void

  1. Deja says:

    I admire your post. Everyone IS experiencing it, even the people who aren’t awake… This has been going on a while, but until recently I thought it was just me.
    Great post !!

  2. Nori says:

    I have been experiencing the same situation you described.
    I am puzzled by myself who have no passion to struggle and get out of this situation.
    Your explanation about VOID made me clear what had been happening to me.
    You saved me a lot. Thank you very much.

  3. JB says:

    Not sure why I am on your mailing list, but the timing seems fortuitous. I am 8 months past the exit of something similar to your void experience. My void experience began with the death of my wife in Nov 2012 and ended with an apparently chance encounter in Sep 2013 with a spiritually compatible person who has resurrected my spiritual life. The dualistic world that I have experinced for over 70 years is rapidly disolving as I become increasingly aware of the unity of creation. I will be interested to discover more regarding higher dimensions.

    Best Regards.

  4. Michelle says:

    So glad I found your site. My body and mind have begun a healing like I’ve never imagined. After 30 years of being ill with many diseases, I have been healing for the past three years. I feel and I look like a different person. I have never experienced so much change and joy. I am glad this is something that is happening to many of us. I now feel I want to be part of the solution and not part of the problem, with regard to our planet and all the creatures who live on this beautiful earth. Thank you for sharing your knowledge.

  5. N says:

    I absolutely identify with your experience… Just this evening, like many other evenings this year, I sat questioning myself. I was crying and asking the angels to help…and here I came across your post. Thank you for your amazing post! God bless…

  6. Nikki says:

    Thank you so much for writing this, Vidya! Reading your words feels like picking up a book and discovering that I somehow have authored it; it all rings so true, as if I’d written it myself. In times like these, it is just so comforting to know that there are others experiencing all of these same feelings; I am grateful that you have articulated them. What a strange, twisted, and funny process this is, eh? So paradoxical … reading the works of so many great philosophers, spiritualists, innovators, and leaders throughout history, knowing that they were driven by the same forces that inspire the experiences you describe here … and yet feeling so alone at times, moving about in a world that feels as though it’s vibrating at a whole different level. I relate very much to what you wrote about the world feeling as though it is becoming increasingly smaller at this time, as I have invested more of my energy in the inner world, which has felt so much more fulfilling. I know that breaking through to new experiences that feel like a better fit requires stripping away old layers, akin to a snake shedding its skin; I’ve been through this process many times now along the ascending spiral. But in periods like these, it is just so reassuring to read the words of brave souls like you, who are plunging ahead into new territory. It is the courage and resolve of people like you and your readers that will bring about the changes that we all seek in the outer landscape. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your candor and strength. We are the change we wish to see in the world. Much love….

    • User Avatar Vidya Frazier says:

      Nikki–How beautifully expressed! Thank you for writing about your own experience–it’s helpful for all of us.

  7. Katt says:

    Your words could have been mine. I have been experiencing exactly the same. I’m so grateful to the void,as you call it. I feel so much has dropped away and been released. I feel I could be absorbed back into Source,an amazing feeling. This process is so different to what goes on in the ‘world’,but I do not question it. I am grateful. Thankyou for expressing it so well. Much love,Katt x

  8. Jacqueline says:

    Thank you so much for clearly articulating the experience of being in the void.
    It is my current journey. An empty glass, afloat, in a rich,private inner world
    Love and Light to you

  9. Laura says:

    I have been in this state almost a year now. But besides accepting the beneficial part of this process, I find it impossible to surrender because being morally and mentally paralyzed and utterly bipolar in the terms of the moods (that swing to the extremes in both sides) – because I have rent to pay and still have the only interest left in my self – that of survival. I really have noone to take care of me while going through this God’s blessed “void” process and I am completely unable to sustain any kind of job or occupation. Any suggestions about surviving and liberating that growing despair – wanting to do something to sustain myself but being completely inapt to function? I would appreciate some insight, thank you !

    • User Avatar Vidya Frazier says:

      Laura–so sorry to hear about your experience! I do know how frightening it can be to feel stuck in the Void and feel so helpless and in fear of survival. It’s requires a supreme trust in the Divine to make it through to the other side. At times, all you can do is simply surrender, completely give up trying to control your life or do anything to change things. You have to completely let go and walk off the cliff, if that’s what it takes. I know, because this has been required of me, actually several times (I’ve been through the Void more than once). It was terrifying, but each time I learned that I wasn’t alone in taking care of me–there were greatly benevolent forces that were guiding my every step, my every decision. And each time, I did survive–sometimes through what seemed like magic. And each time, my trust grew. It really all comes down to trust. Many blessings to you, Laura–

  10. Ajeet says:

    I guess i am in the void. But there is one problem , i had an awakening after that my mind became quite. No thoughts are arising at all. Is it void or my mind has lost the capacity to think . There is no imagination , no emotions, when i close my eyes its only dark. Depression is also playing some role, no motivation as well. I dont speak. Mind has no energy to think , it feels hollow and blank . I does this happen

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